Saturday, July 12, 2014

Haddie Mae: Three Months

Dear Haddie Mae,
At three months old you...
  • Weigh 13lbs and are wearing size 2 diapers and 3 month clothes.
  • Prefer nursing over bottle feeding, but you'll take the bottle (5oz)
  • You eat for about 20 minutes each feeding
  • You don't spend much time on your tummy because you still throw up every time you lay down
  • We used your bumbo for the first time this week and you love it! You also love your play mat
  • Your last feeding is usually between 7:30-8:30. You still sleep swaddled and in your rock n' play. You usually wake up once around 5:00 and a few times have slept through til 6:30am.
  • You look a lot like your brother sometimes, but sometimes I think you don't look like any of us!
  • You still wake up happy and you will smile and coo at almost anyone right after a feeding or right after a nap.
  • We've been working on you napping in your swing or rock n' play but you still mostly catnap unless you're being held. 
  • You have started to like the carseat even less.
  • If you have your paci you can be rocked to sleep by almost anyone at anytime. This is so great!
  • You have started smiling and focusing on Titus which is so adorable!
  • You have a better wardrobe and accessory collection than I do.
Quick update on Titus:
You are a little over two and...
  • You weigh 25 pounds and wear size 18-24m pants and 24m/2T shirts
  • You sleep from about 9 to 7:30and take one nap from about 2:00-3:30/4:00.
  • You are still obsessed with letters. You now know all the letter sounds and can spell your own name. You also write letters in chalk all over the trampoline, fence, and brick patio. Not to mention making letters with your fingers!
  • Your vocabulary has increased SO much! You repeat everything and have started putting 3-4 word sentences together. You love "Haddie gurrl" and singing her your ABCs.
  • You are obsessed with wrestling, jumping and playing rough. It is unbelievable how all-boy you are! I don't think I was ready for how much testosterone would be in a little guy!
  • Your favorite toy is your golf club set. You play a round in the yard for half an hour at a time
  • Your watch the Curious George movie allllll the time. You also have started watching Wipeout and when someone falls down you say, "Oh no!" or "Oh, gosh!"
  • Your favorite foods are pizza, any kind of meat (chicken, pulled pork, bacon, steak), hard boiled eggs (yuck), pickles, raisins, "chocky milk" (chocolate milk), "cockle" (popcicle), Chic-Fil-A, watermelon, all kinds of berries, and popcorn.
  • Your worst habit right now is yelling "MINE!!" about everything. I can't wait til you outgrow this phase!
  • When you misbehave or yell at me I say, "that makes mommy sad," and you stop yelling and say, "hug" and come wrap around my legs. You are just too sweet :)


Tuesday, June 10, 2014

2 Months: Haddie Mae

Dear Haddie Mae,
At two months old you...
  • Weigh 11lbs and moved into size 1 diapers and 0-3 month clothes 2 weeks ago. You are in the 25th percentile for height, 50th for weight, and 75th for head.
  • Have taken a couple of bottles and do really well with them! You take 4-5oz but are breastfed unless I'm not home.
  • You eat for about 20 minutes each feeding
  • You have thankfully not had to get on medicine for Acid Reflux! Titus had it so bad, but I've only noticed minor symptoms in you (hiccups right after eating, throwing up during tummy time, lots of spit up after eating). But since it doesn't seem to bother you we're just rolling with it.
  • Your last feeding is usually between 7:30-8:30. You start getting really cranky around then and want to be swaddled, in the dark, and put in your rock n' play. You get up once during the night (sleeping a 6-9 hour stretch) and then get up for the day between 7:30-9ish.
  • You have great head control, you hold it up all the time and don't bobble at all.
  • You aren't very content during awake time unless you are being held. But if you are being held you will coo and smile at anyone who will look at you!
  • You started smiling at 6 weeks.
  • You hardly ever nap more than 30 minute cat naps unless you are being held and it's quiet. Big Brother makes both of those things pretty impossible, but you don't get too cranky about the lack of naps.
  • You don't like being put into your car seat very much and you don't fall asleep very easily in the car UNLESS I am holding in your paci and then you are out like a light.
  • Speaking of, you LOVE your pacifier. And the noise you make when you are sucking on it is adorable!
  • You hit a toy hanging from your play mat gym today and scared yourself when it swung back and forth. But you were also very amazed at what happened!
  • You have started making little gurgling noises when you are trying to laugh. Ohhhhh, how it melts my heart.
  • You wake up happy in the mornings, it's the craziest thing. Titus always woke up hungry and crying, but you just wake up smiling and talking to me like it hasn't been 4 hours since you last ate. I love this so much about you! I hope this means joy will always come easily for you.
  • You don't do tummy time because you have throw up horribly every time we have tried.
  • You kick your arms and legs like crazy when you are impatient to eat. But when you're not hungry and just hanging out you are completely relaxed and fine to sit still and watch the world go by.
I know it's cliche, but I really can't remember what life was like before we had you, baby girl. It's only been two months but I swear I've never lived a day without you. Maybe that's what being a mommy is all about, loving someone who was always meant to be yours. I am yours, forever and a day. One day you will grow up and probably move away, but I hope that when you think about coming "home" that what you see are the faces of Daddy, Titus and I. We love you to the moon and back, Little Love.

 Cousin Madeline- born six weeks apart

We tried (unsuccessfully) to take some family pictures. But you looked cute!


Thursday, June 5, 2014

A Morning in the Life of: June 5, 2014

As of today I have an eight week old and a two(ish) year old. Today starts at 4:30am with baby's night feeding.

4:30am- Monitor goes off. Wander half asleep to the nursery. Breastfeed. Change diaper. Pray that baby goes back to sleep.

4:50- Back in bed. Lay there feeling exhausted but now wide awake due to staring at phone screen to stay awake while nursing.

5:00- Start to drift off. Monitor alerts me to baby movement. PLEASE NO. False alarm. Baby was working on some gas. But now I am wide awake again from the Mom Adrenaline Rush. Realize I need to pee. Pee in the dark, realize we're out of toilet paper. Guess we're doing the tinkle and shake maneuver. 

5:30- Finally back in bed with husband's knee in my back. Don't care, need sleep.

7:30- Monitor goes off, toddler is awake and yelling "no no! yes yes!" whatever that means.

7:35- Change toddler's diaper, cuddle on couch and watch Sesame Street while wishing I could nod off for a few minutes (impossible, toddler uses me as a climbing tree/punching bag because he is a testosterone-filled crazy person).

7:45- Try to schedule playdate so we can get out of the house.  Friend has her mom in town to help her with kids and is going to take advantage of her free time. Feel resentment toward friend for living my dream life.

8:30- Toddler rejects all breakfast food options screaming "POPSICLE" at the top of his lungs.

8:35- Toddler finally accepts an apple. Repeats "apple" 293054119 times.

9:10- Trick toddler into eating a waffle with peanut butter by turning on another cartoon. Go to bathroom to fix hair and put on makeup. Realize I haven't taken off last night's makeup. Crap. Wash off makeup and take a quick look in the mirror. Regret looking in the mirror.

9:12- Monitor goes off, toddler is in nursery "tickling baby's feet," aka, waking baby up. Forget makeup. Instead settle for deodorant and quick teeth brushing.

9:13- Decide to pee before I'll have to breastfeed again. CRAP. Still no toilet paper. Tinkle and shake.

9:15- nurse baby. Toddler brings random objects over and insists I take them all. I am now holding a nursing baby, a plastic banana ("NO NANA, MOOOOON!!!"), excuse me, a MOON, two empty water bottles, six plastic balls and one Easter egg.

9:17- remind toddler to be sweet to baby while he squeezes her head for the millionth time. Toddler gets bored with baby and goes to stand right in front of the TV. I don't even correct him because it means I get one minute of nursing without him climbing on my shoulders/back/face.

9:25- friend without kids comes over and brings me a coke. PRAISE THE MAKER. Feel bad that all I can give in return is a gassy baby and a toddler yelling, "OH NO NO NO FOUR!" (what.)

9:37- finally done nursing. Ask friend to hold baby so I can go change my clothes. Decide to do hair and makeup but don't have time for both. Choose to dab on a little makeup so I don't look like the Walking Dead and accept the greasy bangs. You can't always get what you want.

10:05- finally get everyone dressed and ready to play outside so toddler will burn off some energy. I look out the window and it has started to rain. NOOOOOOOO.

10:07- cave and give toddler iPad to keep him busy inside. He's playing with alphabet apps so that counts as a learning moment, right? Right.

10:45- realize I haven't eaten breakfast or taken my birth control. MUST TAKE BIRTH CONTROL. Breakfast can wait.

10:50- sweet friend offers to take toddler to play in the rain. GLORY HALLELUJAH! toddler picks up dead worms and cuddles them to his face then proceeds to use said worms to make letters on the concrete.

10:53- toddler takes now mangled worm from alphabet activity and floats it down the stream on the road, saying, "bye bye worm." RIP wormy.

11:30- time for wet trampoline jumping. I take this opportunity to go to the bathroom again since I have to drink like 3000 gallons of water a day while breastfeeding. The baby comes with me because she is strapped in the Baby Bjorn, the only place she will nap, obviously. Realize I STILL HAVE NOT REPLACED THE TOILET PAPER. Tinkle and shake. Again.

11:35- Make lunch for toddler. Floor is wet because he insists on wearing his rain boots to eat, but hey, he isn't paying attention to the fact that he's eating veggies so I'll take it.

11:40- Start to feel nauseous. Think it may be due to parental annoyance. Remember I haven't eaten yet today so that's more likely. Grab the first thing in the fridge, leftover corn in the cob. Dribble corn all over baby's head who is still strapped in the Bjorn. Oh well, she needed a bath today anyway. 

11:42- Toddler announces he is done with lunch by dumping plate off of high chair to test gravity. Gravity is still in play, food splatters across the kitchen floor. Call our dogs into the kitchen to eat the spilled food because I don't have the energy to sweep and mop. Which is a win-win because I also forgot to feed them this morning (whoops).

11:45- make popcorn and turn on movie to hopefully get toddler to wind down while I feed baby. Another round of "NO NO YES YES!!" from the toddler, this time aimed at the popcorn bowl. I have no idea what he wants so I just put some popcorn in his mouth to stop the noise. Didn't move fast enough, baby is now awake and wants to nurse again.


12:03- Officially afternoon. Time to sit on the couch and rest for a second. Or clean the dishes. Or put up laundry. Or finally replace the toilet paper. WAIT. There is one chocolate chip cookie left, I will do get to that first. If I eat it in less than 3 seconds while hiding in the garage I can have it all to myself. Priorities, people.


Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Haddie: One Month

Dear Haddie,
At one month old you...

  • Breastfeed for 20 minutes every 3 hours during the day.
  • Wear newborn diapers but are outgrowing NB clothes
  • Weigh a little over 9 pounds
  • Don't nap well during the day, usually because you are having trouble with gas. You hate Gripe Water but will take gas drops. Neither really help much but thankfully you don't cry too much even when you're overtired! You do think you want to eat constantly, though, if you're tired.
  • You sleep a 5-6 hour stretch at night. You've done a few nights of 7-8 hours, but not for the last week.
  • You spit up and get really bad hiccups after a lot of your feedings. I hope you don't have reflux like Titus!
  • You sleep in the Rock n' Play in your nursery
  • You haven't done any tummy time yet because you throw up or get unhappy. You actually don't really seem to like any wake time activity except being held with your paci in or watching the bird mobile on your swing.
  • You sleep pretty well in the swing but only like the swing to be on after you're asleep
  • You don't mind having your diaper changed, even in the middle of the night
  • You love bath time! You sit there quietly and look around the whole time. You seem so peaceful!
  • My favorite time of day with you is when you smile in your sleep. I can't wait to see that happen on purpose!
  • You love lifting your head up when being burped and are very strong
  • You prefer to fall asleep being cradled sideways instead of on my shoulder like brother
  • You love your paci, like a whole lot. So far you like using a Soothie best
  • We don't know who you look like exactly! There's definitely some mommy and daddy in there, but you look most like big brother Titus.
  • You have crazy long eyelashes! They are beautiful and I am jealous
  • Your hair is still red. We are all so curious to see if it stays that way!
  • You don't like being in your carseat at all.
So far you have been a pretty easy baby! Even though you don't nap much and aren't very content when you are awake (probably because you're tired) you don't cry about it, you just squirm and whine a little. But luckily you have your big brother to keep you entertained when you are awake all day, and he showers you with kisses and high fives. Every time I look at you two together I get so excited thinking about the future giggles and secrets that you will share. We are so lucky to have you, sweet Haddie Mae! We already love you to the moon and back.


Tuesday, April 29, 2014

The First Two Weeks

We have officially made it through the first couple of weeks as a family of four! Garland was home the first week and my mom came to visit the second week, and it was SO nice to have help! Around the 7 day mark I noticed my Postpartum Depression (PPD) symptoms returning (heart racing when I tried to sleep, loss of appetite, uncontrollable crying, inability to make decisions....) which was really disappointing. I knew it was a possibility (women who've had PPD previously have a 50% chance of getting it again as compared to 15% of all women) but I really thought because I knew what to do with a newborn it wouldn't happen this time. Unfortunately, because it is a chemical reaction in your brain, no amount of preparedness can keep your body from responding the way it wants to. It really is the strangest experience (you can read my blog entries on how it effected me with Titus herehere and here). The first few days I was euphoric about having Haddie, then a couple of days of sporadic crying fits, then uncontrollable crying most of the day. I knew I wasn't worried about her and that things would be fine, but I couldn't make my brain believe me. I would have thoughts like, "We weren't ready for another baby, this was a terrible idea!" But all the while I would know that was irrational and didn't really feel that way. Luckily because I knew the signs and symptoms it was easier to rationalize with myself and not let the feelings take over. I just had to remind myself over and over that these were not my true thoughts and they would soon go away.

Since we caught it so much earlier this time (I didn't realize I had it with Titus until 5/6 weeks) it's been easier to manage and control. My biggest anxiety trigger had been the thought of being alone with both kids, but after talking to my doctor and starting back on my PPD medicine, I didn't feel anxious at all about being home alone for the first time today. Praise God for that!

So that's the update on momma, here is a quick review of the first two weeks of Haddie's life and what I've learned about our baby girl so far:

-You came home in premie diapers (you were 6lb even when we left the hospital) and newborn clothes swallowed you. You're now in NB diapers and are up to 7.5lbs so your NB clothes look more your size.

-You typically go 3-4 hours between feedings just like your brother did, but unlike with him, I don't panic about you not waking up to eat or not gaining weight :) You also eat quicker (about 20 minutes, he did 45) and more aggressively.

-You already do a 5-6 hour stretch at night which I know is saving my sanity during the day (brother did this too, but not quite this early).

-You sleep swaddled at night time and sleep in the rock n play. Your newborn sleeping noises kept me awake so we moved you to the nursery a little after a week, now we're both sleeping much better!

-You sleep unswaddled during the day and really like sleeping in the swing, but propped up on your side. You've also napped in your crib (on your side) and in the rock n play, and of course on mommy's chest :)

-The only thing that's been difficult about you so far is that you do not fall asleep on your own (Titus used to just doze off in the swing or rock n play). You don't want to miss anything going on around you, so it's not unheard of for you to stay awake for 2 hours unless we intentionally help you fall asleep (pacifier and swaying/patting). You don't even usually cry when you're awake that long, you just hang out and look around! But it is much more difficult to coax you to sleep once you are overtired.

-If I put you flat on your back after a feeding you spit everything up and get awful hiccups. Hoping you don't end up with reflux like your brother! You did have some gas issues but now you get gas drops before each feeding and that seemed to help for the most part. But you don't mind diaper changes, not even in the middle of the night!

-You don't love your car seat and it doesn't put you to sleep, but you just sit in it content and look around.

-You love your paci which is a new experience for us since Titus didn't take one! You use it to fall asleep for naps a lot of times, but spit it out when you sleep (which is great since I don't have to put it back in when it falls out!).

Overall, you have been an incredibly easy baby! Which is a Godsend since transitioning from one kid to two has been challenging. We are so thankful for you and your full head of red hair! I can't wait to see you smile for the first time and listen to what your baby noises will sound like. Fingers crossed you stay laid back and make things easy for momma. We love you to the moon and back, sweet girl!

 Titus came to visit and didn't care about the baby at all. He just wanted to sit with mommy and watch "Joge" (Curious George). I loved his sweet cuddles!

 He likes to give her high fives and point out her hands, feet, hair, etc...

 Birthday trampoline!